Disclaimer: The following fan fiction has aspects of the original film however has changed the story line to be more personal.



Where did You go and Why did You leave me.

But little did she know She was always there for her. No matter where she went, what she did She was always there. But, she never knew; so she put herself through pain she didn't deserve. From time to time she would always feel lonely, abandoned, misunderstood. She questioned her will to live; always. Was it worth it?

Her name was Alice.

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She was never into the whole "love" idea let alone relationships. She was too busy in her own little world to care what anyone would think. She was independent, and never really had time for anyone else but her. Until one day, she met Alice and her whole world changed. Alice made her feel happier, prettier and was taught howto accept love and most importantly give love. It was like all she ever needed was Alice. She would tell Alice everything that was happening in her life, from the good things to the bad things. She had never loved so hard before so when she met Alice she gave her everything.

They had a relationship like no other. Their bond was indescribable and every time they were together they would make the most of it. She didn't know it yet but Alice was her backbone, without her she would fall. It was as if they were meant to be.

 

Everyday they learned from each other and everyday their love would grow and grow like a little oak tree. Two inseparable souls like Ying n Yang. Everywhere Alice went, she would follow, she was like her little shadow, her little sidekick. They went shopping together, church together and even went to play bingo together.

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Days turned in to months which turned into years. For them it felt short because they felt like they've know each other for 12824730 years. They were having fun and most importantly they were helping each other live their best lives. They knew everything about each other from their favorite foods, to their drinks, clothes and even their favorite peanuts (Alice's favorite peanuts were the roasted ones in the little cans)

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Well at least she thought she knew everything.

Alice lied to her. She kept a secret and never told her. For so long it hurt Alice but she knew that if she told her she would never forgive Alice. Alice never wanted to hurt anyone, she loved to keep the peace so instead she kept quiet and always went with the flow.

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It was the 7th of May 2017, they were supposed to go to church together but Alice told her to go and she would meet her at church. On her way to church the wind didn't feel the same and the little oak tree no longer had any leaves.

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Alice had left her, even before she could make her proud even before she could give her all her love, she vanished. She left, just like everyone else in her life. People would come and go, come and go and she wouldn't mind but when Alice left it was a whole different story.

Because unlike everyone else Alice was her everything.

And when Alice left, things were never the same.

How did she cope?

She didn't.

She tried to keep her mind off the fact that Alice had left even after all the time they had spent together and all the memories they shared...she still felt lonely and in a way, betrayed. She cried for days maybe even months. Alice left and she was never there for her. Till this day she can never understand why she never got to see Alice and why Alice never told her about her sickness. Everyday she blames herself for not being there enough for Alice and for not knowing that she was going through so much but yet Alice smiled through everything and hid it all away.

She cries herself to sleep every night silently in her dark and empty room. She always talks to Alice as if Alice was right next to her. She reminisces on the times they spent together and the memories they shared. Alice has been gone for almost 3 years now. She tries to keep herself busy but everything reminds her of Alice so she sat down one night and wrote a poem in hope that one day Alice will come walking through her doors with her arms opened wide and her smile that she misses the most. The poem went something like this,

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I hate the way I miss you and the way you left me alone. I hate the way you went and never came back home.

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I hate the way you smile and the way you make me feel. I hate how much I miss you and how this doesn't feel real.

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I hate the way you smell and the way you comb your hair I hate how when you left I was not there.

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I hate the way you laugh and the way you talk. I hate it especially when you've been there even before I could walk.

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I hate the way I miss hearing Happy Birthday every time you call. But mostly. I hate the way I don't hate you, not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

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Nana,

Words will never be able to describe the day you left me. I was torn to pieces because I told you the night before that I would see you in the morning but I was too late. I was never there for your final breath and it hurts every time I think of that day. I mourn you through my essays, I write to let my feelings out and when I write I feel at peace because writing about you makes me feel closer to you in so many ways. I love you Nana.

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-Manaui